gone fishin

Letting Go<3

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 20:14:47 GMT

I came here to let you know
The letting go
Has taken place
I have held the winter's son
Become one
Set my pace
Isn't that what we wanted all along
Freedom like a stone
Maybe we were wrong
But I can say goodbye
Now that the passion's died
Still it comes so slow
The letting go

Piece by piece I take apart
This complicated heart
And I hope to find
Something I can prove is real
I can feel is truth
I can say is mine
That's all I even wanted to be
The closer I got
The further I could see
But when lovers change
And the night feels strange
We choose our road
The letting go

I came here to let you know
The letting go
Has taken place

summa-vacay

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 20:14:02 GMT

so its summer now.
im offically out of highschool for life.
its wierd.
it doesnt really seem like it.
so, besides that what else is new?
im working at wetseal now.
its okay, i mean its fun.
but they dont honor my avaiability at all!
theres a guy in the picture.
its wierd, its been a year since mark.
and things are going good.
i never thought i would be here, but i am.
so its all good.
im going to england this summer.
yay.
so i think thats all.
<33

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 04:29:03 GMT

he'll
never
adore
ME

Tue, 23 May 2006 22:17:17 GMT

so i dont know.
im graduating in excatly 14 days including weekends
i turn 18 in 24 days.
i go to england in like two months

i want to go to ccbc murrieta then transfer to ccbc york
dream school right there
i dont know though

things are iffy.
dad and step mom are kaput [for good]
moms scared im gunna leave her and shes getting all protective and what not

i dont know how im gunna learn to drive
mom doesnt want to teach me
and i have to pay for it myself.

i have so many things to pay for
i know it sounds like im complaining
but im just freaking out.
i have so many things I have to pay for.
im just so worried/stressed/confused.

i dont know
i guess this is growing up.
<3

Sun, 21 May 2006 00:49:35 GMT

my mom is so stupid.
this is so gay.
gawd.
she needs to get over herself
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
kill me now please?

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 05:26:04 GMT

Please Stay

Is it true what they say?
that love fades away,
to leave us quiet and motionless
blaming everything on each other
and no matter how close we get
or how long we hold each other
we will feel like the loneliest people in the world
and the only thing weve come to know is this hate
and we cant see a thing
because our eyes are full of tears
we will never cry
and we cant speak
becuase are lips are full of words
we will never say
and as the sun comes up
he grabs his jacket and his bag
and leaves with out saying goodbye
because you heard
everything you needed to hear
last night
except one thing i didnt say
I love you, please stay.

life

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 09:18:50 GMT

things are going pretty good lately
ive been writing alot more
and apparently its good
or so ive been told.
ive been so tired lately.
prolly cuz ive been staying up late
chatting
then actually doing my hw
lol
my moms getting mad that ive been staying up so late. but oh well
you cant please everyone
mark emailed me yesterday
just wanted to see how i was
then apologized
then saying he still cares for me
(even though he has a gf)
whatever, lame.
its almost thanksgiving...trippy
next thing you know it will be the end of senior year
whoa.
well thats all for now
<33

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 23:50:29 GMT

okay so previous entry
scratch that
im good
lol i was just way stressed.
but s'all good
:)

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 19:22:10 GMT

im so fucking tired.
not just tired as in sleep
but tired of everything.
im tired of school
and boys
and the constant drama at ochsa.
im tired of everything.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 07:48:04 GMT

so yeah
life is good
im happy.
for the most part!
i guess there are a few things i would change
but everyone has somehthing like that.
oh well.
<3333

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 05:38:54 GMT

knotts was scary
dads was fun
i chatted alot
that was awesome
<3

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 21:08:13 GMT

</3

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 05:13:56 GMT

things are good.

end of story.

ps i didnt get back with mark.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 03:50:42 GMT

holy shit. just when i think that summer romances are done and gone for good here it comes up again shaking my world....what am i to do?
im not giving him a second chance, thats for damn sure. but he wants to be friends. he wants to talk. he said he realized what he lost and that i was the best thing in his life and he loved being with me.
why is he doing this.
i dont get it.
after all this time...now?
i want to scream at the top of my lungs.

i cant let him get to me. he wants to hang out. and i care about him duh. and i cant let myself get attached again, i cant put myself through this.

im shaking as i write this. why now. whyyyyy....

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 04:21:27 GMT

i havent been this scared in a long time
and im so unprepared so heres your valentine
bouquet of clumys words
a simple melody
this worlds an ugly place but
youre so beautiful to me...

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 04:05:57 GMT

what do men and parking spots have in common?

the good ones are hard to find, and the rest are disabled.

hahahaha!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:00:02 GMT

i hate being told the truth
especially if its something i dont want to hear.

=/

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 19:43:53 GMT

9-11....
we will never forget...
:'(

cute boys are awesome.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 04:40:43 GMT

im thinking, or i have been thinking...and its time i took control of somethings. ive decided that im not happy with myself. so im going to start making some changes and try to help me feel better about the person i am. so im gunna start that tomorrow...wish me luck

i am also going to email my dad. and tell him what i feel. about everything. how everything that he has done has affected me. and how its not fair. im scared. im gunna ask him to start weekly dinners for just the two of us. i want to have a father in my life. and not just someone who comes to christmas. again wish me luck...

haha i love drew. he is so awesome, i am in love with that boy. too bad he lives in texas lol. its a good thing that myspace is haha...

hiletsallbescene: id be honored to sit on your lap
un4gtableromance: id be honoroed to have you sit on my lap
hiletsallbescne: <3!

hiletsallbescene: if you were here id share a pepsi with you
un4gtalberomance: aw you make me smile!
un4gtableromance: <3
hiletsallbescene: xELEVEN

<33!

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 21:54:24 GMT

my new car!
yay!!!!!

ive got soul but im not a soilder

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:10:33 GMT

classes!

blk. 1 late start
blk. 2 chemistry with mccormick rm 505 (ew i dont like mccormick)
blk. 3 non fiction lit with todd rm 8
blk. 4 econ with dion rm 20
blk. 5 phiolsphy and critical thinking with kadri rm 601
blk. 6 spanish IV with briggerman rm 507

thats my school schedule....sounds good?

shhh!

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 01:41:18 GMT

ill keep you my dirty little secret

dont tell anyone or youll be just another regret

i hope that you can keep it.

i love you cause i have to

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 19:38:30 GMT

so yeah...lol...recently...i did something i normally thought i wouldnt. and now my beliefs on that topic are changing. and i dont know if its good. i dont know. i thought that i wouldnt be proud of doing it, but im not hating myself for it either. im a teenager. and thats what teenagers do right? gr.

no one knows what this is about except meredith so lol ignore it if your not her.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 01:12:39 GMT

i totally just lost all respect that i had for my dad.

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 04:44:53 GMT

lets seeeee....today lacy came home...and we caught up. shes been gone a month and missed alot. lol. then we went to see charlie and the chocolate factory...its way good. not too much else has been goin on...but its good...ive been reading and cleaning and such so yeah thats my week haha

<333